So here I am, a year older, a little wiser, and just as awesome as always.  Read a few things here and there on various blogs that have got me thinking about how time, whether you decide to keep up or not, will continue regardless.  One of my best friends recently made a comment about how I am never satisfied with anything.  I thought, damn this guys known me for close to 20 years but he doesn’t really know me at all.   There’s a difference between satisfaction and challenge.  Challenging oneself to be the best self they can be is an entirely different thing from being satisfied with the present moment.  They absolutely do not have to be mutually exclusive.

In time, things will change.  They always do, because time keeps on moving.  If you stop, time doesn’t wait up.  If you are satisfied with everything that is, by all means stop and enjoy it all.  You should appreciate everything you have.  You might find, however, that the things you used to enjoy might not quite do it for you anymore.  Where it can get destructive, is when to keep that high of satisfaction you must get the next thing, and then the next, and then the next.  I wouldn’t call that true satisfaction.  I`ll call it societal brainwashing 101.

Right now, I am not where I thought I would be at this age.  I am comfortable, for sure, and to me that is not something I wish to be for too long.  But that isn’t dissatisfaction, not at all.  That’s just me, demanding more from myself.  Nobody puts this pressure on themselves except for themselves.  Its time to put things in motion to start the next phase of my life, because if you wait, you regret.  But time keeps ticking, ticking, ticking away.  I don’t care if I am here for 1 more day or 100 years if the time I am spending here is being wasted.  Wasted on pettiness, on greed, on vanity.  Wasted on other people’s expectations, wasted on waiting for others to make the decisions.  Its gross.  It makes me feel sick just thinking about it.  So, I say, stop wasting.  Stop wasting time, stop being wasteful to the environment, to your health. Demand more not from others, but from yourself.

I told my manager over lunch to beat me with a bat if I am still here in 1 year.  Who says that to their manager, especially right before their performance review?  Perhaps an idiotic move to your career, for sure, but honest nonetheless.  That’s why I applaud Miss California, who lost Miss America the other day because of her stance on gay marriage.  She was honest on her opinion (which I don`t agree with for the record) and because of that lost and was called mean things by not very compassionate people.  Hats off to Miss California for speaking her truth.  In the long run, honesty wins.  It just does.  Dishonesty for betterment of self is lacking in integrity and homey don`t play that.

I am moving along, because guess what?  Each year I get older, I get wiser.  I challenge myself, I explore and discover.  Nothing can be taken from that, only added.  Long after your looks have faded, or whatever else you think you have going for you, what will you have left? All that remains is your spirit, your consciousness, and time can`t touch that.